The Man I Am

I slipped out the door into the dark cold November night.
As I walked the few steps to the subway to begin my lonely trek home, the smell of you is still on my fingertips, on my sweater, in my hair.

I absently touch my lips feeling the rough spots from where your stubble ground against my flesh in our passion. It hurts but it is a pleasing pain.

In my mind I can see you lying next to me your brown eyes looking right through me.
Seeing me for who I really am, and I am not afraid.

I worry that I will disappoint you.
I worry that I am not what I seem.
Yet I know your intuition is accurate, you let that slip.

So I will trust you and trust myself to finally be myself.
Be the man I have hidden away.
Be the man that you are attracted to.
Be the man you see clear as day.

Eric Hodgson
November 1st, 2011

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