Lost

Some people lose themselves in a book
Some lose themselves in a movie or song
others lose themselves in food or drink
me ....I lost myself in none of these.
one day I looked out on the world and wondered
what am I doing? Where did I veer so off course.
The stress of it all makes me lose sight of my end goal.
Health and happiness.
I turn to habits and things destructive
No...I must turn myself around.
I must find my way back on track
back to the road I started walking down with determination
It will take determination and perserverance to do so
It is never easy to let things go but dissappointment is the least of these
I put my solemn hat of loneliness back on
look at my computer screen and think
this is not the way it is supposed to be.
I should be happy.
but i am not.
Time will change this
Time and me.