Thoughts on the Train

The Darkness Among Us Seeds sowed with hateful hearts. Depleted energy, after the pistol pin cracks. The light in others dowsed. Oh, how we have failed them. The hope of youth following the agony and indifference of age.  Let them energize us. Let them lead us. Let them show us the way back to who we were. Pain....brought about by an imagined slight. Black, Brown, Red or White. Fear dragged forward Into the light.  Ugly is the soul, beautiful though the art of the face on the bill may be. Only moments of solace, Until greed arises again. Unbidden, Unsolicited, Unrequited Simply there. The greed of people who do not bleed, allowing others  To hate To destroy To kill With no remorse or empathy as they count their profits. Still we go on.......... Written on 3/6/18 on the LIRR

Fear pain and waiting We all go through these But they mean something different to each one of us.  years of pain and the threat of death. Waiting for the phone to ring. Afraid to go to sleep, thankful that you woke up. I’ve been there before and know I will be there again.    I am prepared. It’s been 10 years. 10 years of near perfection in life. No pain, no fear….trudging forward. And the numbers go up. They go up and my fear and anxiety skyrocket. And I wait…..for the next test. Fear Fear that I will be that helpless individual that relies on others to survive. Fear that I will lose my independence. Fear I will lose my job. Fear of pity and shame. Still, I wait Pain The pain ….24hrs a day 7 days a week. Deep in your bones. In your head, in your heart ….in your soul. And of course in your chest, arms, belly, and legs. Needles the size of ball point pens. Blood pressure crashing. Nothing you can do……. But wait. Pray...